I am starting to really show now. Before you couldn't really tell I was pregnant if you didn't know me, I just looked like I gained some weight. Actually, I probably still look that way with clothes on. When I look at myself with clothes on I think I look like a woman with a tumor in her abdomen or a woman that has a distended abdomen, but not an abdomen that screams "THAT LADY IS PREGNANT!" That is until I wear maternity clothes, then the cut of the clothes helps spell it out for onlookers who are staring at my odd shape wondering if they are about to witness the first ever abdomen explosion.
In any case, with my anatomy scan, screening, new belly, and feelings of Liam moving around I am trying to keep my thoughts focused on good, positive things rather than obsess over losing little Liam. Sure I am def. going to complain about the pregnancy aches and pains, but I am going to revel in them too becuase to be honest - this pregnancy hasn't been quite that bad! I thought I would be a horrible pregnant person- moaning, complaining, needy, and just plain miserable. But so far besides the constant fear of losing Liam I have kept my wits about me and continue to be a productive member of society.
I actually took the first step in trying to rejoice and enjoy little Liam inside me and the idea of Liam by making my first baby boy purchase. I love little man shoes so I bought some adorable shoes for Liam - their a size 4 so we've got some time - but I am planning, and I am preparing, and accepting, and finally letting myself look forward to having little Liam in our lives rather than bathing in denial afraid to love this little bug growing inside of me.
I had planned on writing tons more, but my dinner just arrived! Yes, delivery - pasta in fact. Sad, Sad I know but I didn't have any meat to make meatballs and really really wanted meatballs with my baked ziti and the hubster is working so really didn't want to use all that energy making a meal :)
